My Personal Safari…(Update)
I finally embarked on my self-discovery journey. Hoorah! NOT. No one could have prepared me enough for it. My coach warned me severally that this process would be an involving even intense one. I didn’t realize how ill prepared I was for it.
The last two weeks have been particularly challenging. My mind has been consistently preoccupied with the things that this process has extricated. It has been impossible to put anything coherent together in terms of a blog. I have barely slept. I’m used to sleeping by ten o’clock every night yet I have found myself sleeping past twelve o’clock one too many times. I’m drained and tired. I have cried myself silly. I have even lost my voice *croak croak* Forlorn much? I’m only one month into this personal safari and I’m having an internal battle as to whether I should carry on although quitting is NOT an option.
Why would I want to put this out there you may ask, especially considering I promised to be more positive this year? Because in less than two months I will write about the benefits I will have reaped from this personal journey. I’m confident that I will emerge a better woman. I will be more grounded, able to exercise my decision making muscle well, self-confident, happy and able to live my life optimally. Most importantly I will be as light as a feather (emotionally) because I will have dealt with my baggage.
I came across this very powerful quote last week. It strengthened my resolve to keep on keeping on even when this journey becomes tough. It reads:
“You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them.”
~ Iyanla Vanzant
So if you meet me and I’m looking a littu haggard, please ‘schoose me.
Yeah, I just said that!
Ps. Easter Holidays are around the corner. I smell the sweet scent of a getaway
Update: I’m taking a brief blog hiatus to concentrate on this journey. Stay fab fam.